Dream

One that we see when we close our eyes.

It lasts until we realize its existence...

and then, disappears...

As soon as we open our eyes.

Some cry

Some smile

Some question

And, some answer the question.

-- xJun in "Dream" 

14th December, 2012

No Dreams

Well, in the world there are people who succeeded at their very first try.

That makes me jealous.

As far as I have concerned, I am a person who is freaking jealousy.

People got more and I hated it.

So, the consequence is that I never learn to appreciate. Never.

And then I fall into my circle.

Who cares?

..............................................................................................................

Alright, let's say you care.

Just pretend like you care.

..lol..

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So, in the competition I joined last month we were short-listed to the brand's judge panel.

And we couldn't win any places.

I thought, I had put a lot of efforts on it but then it responded this way.

I spent money on it and I thought I could get back some in addition 

so my mama needs not worry about me for at least... 

a few months.

None. Not a cent.

I told my lecturers and they said 'that's great at least you were short-listed'.

That's not totally incorrect.

I just like this motivation.

But you know...

when you opt for something and you don't get it right beside you...

here comes a feeling of

"這不是肯德基家鄉雞 !!!"

while... actually,

"奶奶's 家鄉雞 is much better !"

when you sense a kind of

FAILURE

Anyway...

I better stop complaining and make more.

as I truly believe in my future.

I never want to be defeated since I was born

Although I have failed ever since I was primary 3,

(here's a list of my failures that I wish to share):

1) PTS result did not qualify me to skip standard 4

2) Never stayed in class A (as I went through 4A, 5B, 6C......)

2) UPSR result did not fulfill my wish of get at least 6 As and study in famous SMK

3) 98% of the drawing contests I joined I lost, the highest achievement was...

well, consolation prize.

4) During form 1 I learned guitar and it's just few months later, I quit, at the stage of...

Book 2.

5) I quit because I fell for computer games, e.g. Counter-Strike. I skipped class for games.

And now....

I am not the top gamer, even in my friend's cyber cafe, and still...

being fooled by mates.

6) PMR result did not bring me into Science class. And during that year, I failed to woo a girl.

My first time, and the purest.

7) So I kept going... I had no choice. That's form 4. Yet, I escaped classes for games.

Most notable failure in my life, ever...

is when the warning letter sent to my home, and I still told them lie. That's.... funny.

The slap my daddy dedicated to me had woke me up...

daddy...... dedi-cated...... well, now I know why my homey got so many cats already.

8) I continued to fail until the second exam in form 5. My last year in secondary school life.

Well I know for me that's not bad though, but being compared to the others I was shit.

Whatsoever, it's 2007 and the year I was influenced by Ang Lee's presentation on GHFF.

9) I thought my SPM result could be satisfying but at the end it wasn't. Failed.

10) At that time I wished I could study films, tried hell hard to persuade my mama and she wanted me to rethink about it so I jumped into my high school life, form 6.

11) But before that, that's national service I attended for 3 months. I thought I could make some changes, meet (woo) some girls... 

Well eventually there's one but I don't know what that awkward relation(friend)ship should call.

12) And even before that, during work in CS with my buddies, I thought I could get high sales figure so my commissions could go as high as possible, at the end I just couldn't.

13) So... back to my form 6 life. Nothing special. New friends. New circumstances. New environments. New teachers.

I thought... I have changed. No. I never learn. It's a failure period also.

Results so-so-, and the girl I like ever since the first glimpse... Well, long story. Let's skip.

14) And then, STPM result did not allow me to enter the same University as hers. Well, it's Malaysia number 1 Uni. Who am I to enter that brainy territory? 

I believe I can, if I am able to lick my medulla oblongata. 

Anyway this is the only term I remember for science subject for this short retrospection.

15) And so I thought I go to study film in UNIMAS, one failure is my application of loan was just 9k.

Wtf!? 9K!? What can I do after I paid 7K for fees? Hmmm...

There are more. But I don't wanna type no more.

That's just part of our life

I went through it and tried to change it..

And that's it.

Should just appreciate.

And smile...

while drinking a sip of Hoegarden.

That's life babe!

Wait, Dreams

As per title,

wait dreams.

Anyway, it sounds creepy.

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So far no good.

Busy like beesie.

I couldn't believe that I didn't update my blog for 2 months.

Whatever, it's already a fact.

Haha!

Final year for every undergraduates is a murderer.

It kills our time.

It kills our money.

It kills our brain cells.

It kills our relationship.

It kills our temper.

It kills our..

Well, true story.

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We just have to keep doing, 

proof reading, correcting, proof reading, correcting, giving lecturer for supervising, 

correcting, proof reading, correcting, proof reading, giving lecturer for supervising...

Is this what we are calling a "life"?

NO!

My life wouldn't and won't be that simple.

I don't live for assignments and projects ONLY.

I still have lots of things can do!

And therefore, I came to a film competition.

Beijing Video Contest 2012, for a brand from options: Sprite.

That sounds nice isn't it?

Well, it's not an assignment.

But, I get extra marks in my life.

I didn't think of I could manage to get ONE video made and uploaded on time,

as my friends around me do not care as much as I did (except for its director ms. Peuh Ing).

That's cool.

At least I didn't work alone.

And my spirit doesn't get discouraged.

Additionally, despite a local lecturer who teased me by wishing me win the contest 

(because I went to hunt location and didn't attend to Junior's orientation activity, he cared)  

my 'foreign' lecturers praised us a lot,

no matter the director's visions,

or my hard work on editing plus sounds/musics design,

as well as the effort on searching location (recce),

production, et. al.

This time, for me, is a success.

At least I didn't barely talk out loud about my intentions.

Though last few times I had showed up my passions and ideas for many competitions,

but they just met a ton of obstacles, e.g.:

1) Equipment rental application

2) Talents

3) Deadline

4) Budget

5) Ideas unsteady after talking with lecturers

This time, I learned, I get rid of them.

And now all I have to do is wait.

Win or no win, I still get marks for my life.

Here I dedicate this article and my video called "Gutcha!" to my dearest mom.

As she urged me to keep studying hard, read and read and read...

so that I can get good result which is influential enough for my future.

I listened and I am doing my best to make you proud, mom.

But I have to apologize for this time because I put more efforts on this contest.

And I am already late to my final year thesis for 1 month.

Need not worry because I will catch up asap.

Hahaha!

P.s.: might be participating in another contest later.

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Talk about thesis,

I am stuck.

STUCK!

TICK! TUCK! TICK! TUCK!

STUCK!!

and the time is running out.

What to do?

Hmmm..........

But then I have a rough draft for my final year video project already.

A story that reflects realism and humanism.

As for the details I won't announce too soon.

Suspense.

Next year this time,

I will be in the graduation gown and cap.

All the best.

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Recently I like to play guitar for
"좋겠어"... 
I'm playing acoustic one and wishing to have an electric one.
Hmmmm....

That's all for today.

Dismiss!

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Looking forward I see my dream.

So far. Yet so close.

Looking backward I see my shadow.

So close. Yet so far.

k thanks bye.

Dreams Dreams

Dream dream and dreams...

So, let me ask myself, 

what did I do for my dreams?

...

......

Shut up and let me think.

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Wooohoooo, I have done with my internship in KL.

Well, what to say...

Here are some photos.

Cheers~

She is Pramela, my coursemate, who was in the same company doing industrial training.

We're in Biscuit Films Production.

That's my office.

These are photos of shooting:

see and judge on your perspectives so I don't need no explanation

well... im lazy.

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Now I tell you I still care..

could you make some changes?

Gd night.

And another dream

So now I have another dream,

"I want to see my parents smiling, and the reason behind that smile is me."

I guess this is the dream of every children.

Well, I really wish that I can make it.

And I wish my brother & sisters can make it too.

Chaaaaaaa Youuuuuuu laaaa!

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I believe, the opportunity is right in front of me.

To catch it or not, that's my choice.

Or maybe if I caught it, I failed to make it.

Quite negative but who knows god stands at which side?

Just...

Chaaaaaa Youuuuuuuu laaaa!

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As everyone knows that "first" is so important.

first love, virginity, gold medal, opening paragraph of every essay,

I believe the film debut of every film directors is absolutely vital, too.

Hence, looking back their very first film is a must-do thing.

And, do my very best for my debut is of course, another must-do thing.

So... I will try my best to make it happen.

It's my life.

Once and after all, none.

Two possibilities,

1) I make my short film debut and get good critics, people remember me.

2) I make my short film debut and fucked up my very first image in public.

That's why...

I'm trying to avoid the second.

For my thesis, I chose my title and my film genre/style carefully.

As nowadays most young filmmakers don't know how to tell a story,

I considered myself as one of them after I looked back to my projects.

This time, I'm gonna take a successful director as my reference,

like how he does always, taking the great examples of excellent film directors as references.

To study the way he made the story in a heart-driven cinematic way.

Anyway, the thing is...

I wanna drive your heart.

Vroooommmmm vrooommmmmmm~~

Chaaaaaa Youuuuuuuuu laaaaa!

I have a dream

Sometimes, somebody at somewhere on earth just have some dreams after watched someone.

It's so random or we can say, it's destiny.

It is so random, whenever the lil. kid is watching cartoon and he dreams to become a cartoonist, or the hero being drawn by the cartoonist.

It is so random, whenever an old folk is watching the sun-set and he dreams to see his children again.

It is so random, whenever a teenager is watching Golden Horse Film Festival and he dreams to be a film director. True story. Ang Lee makes my dream.

As far as I've concerned, he's the only Chinese who received the Golden Statuette for Best Director from Oscar, Academy Award.

As far as I've concerned, he has analyzed the Hollywood film forms during his master degree in NYU, and merged the knowledge with his own traditional concept, created commercially successful yet artistic films.

I pursue. After form 5 SPM exam, I tried to search for film school. Private U, private U, and private U; but what I lacked was money, money, and money, thus, my mom kicked me to English College.

It's form 6, the Hell Gate in every form 5 graduates' and form 6 students' mind.

Anyway, I have gone through the Hell Gate, and I'm glad that my younger sister is right behind me, taking the same path as mine. I have to say.... "Congratulation and All the Best."

After all, the passion faded. It had been three years and what I did wasn't all related to my dream. It's time to choose which Bachelor Degree in which local University, and I chose 3 business programs from UM (obviously I just wanted to go to UM that time), 1 business program from UPM and UKM. Another 3 slots I left them blank.

Well, so random, I failed to get any. That's life. The second and very last chance to enroll in second intake, brought me the opportunity to see these courses, namely Film Directing from USM and Cinematography from UNIMAS. Then I go for Cinematography in UNIMAS. Currently a second year student, soon to be final year. P.s. Damn it, it reminds me of my FYP.

Don't ask me what's life, or what's fate and destiny. I won't ever know how to describe, as they come to people at no exact time. Now, I pursue. Film director. What a dream job. When I was young people ask me about my dream. As I spoke it out they just laughed at me and refused to believe. Ya I know it's very dreamy as everyone knows. Or even worse, when I was about to attend this course, my friends asked me why did I choose this freezing industry? My response was, and now still is, "because it's freezing".

So I seize the opportunities to talk with anyone who is on this field. Lecturers, Tutors, Classmates. And now we come out to have out practical Internship in film company. I learned a lot, from different people. Lighting Sparks, Gaffers, Key Grip, Grip men, Director of Photography, VTR, Prop Assistants, Art Assistants, Production Assistants, Production Manager and so on. I stood behind the director and learned the way he does his job. 

This Monday, was my very first professional wrap in my life.

Thanks to Gerard, the director, I learned something though he wasn't teaching me.

Thanks to Kelvin, the 1st AD, I learned a lot as he is so responsible to himself and his job.

I like his style. Cool.

Thanks to San, the 2nd AD, her humble warmed my nervousness.

Thanks to Magen, Brenda, Deane, Puisee, Fabyan, Daniel, Andre, Ming, Suri, Babu, Sekar, Sham, Along, Marwan, Achik, Soon, Darren, Joe, Joey, Farah, Priscilla, Syaqeer, Genesis, Yai, Chris, Pramela, Kristina, Abang Lan, Faizal, Azizan, L. Burnett Agencies, and some other crews as well as the talents.

My heartbeat stopped for 1 second at the moment I heard Kelvin shouted:

"Alright guys, it's a WRAP!"

 Everyone just clapped. How nice. How heartfelt it was.

You won't know unless you been there.

Anyway, still managed to shake Gerard's hand. I just need some spiritual motivation.

LOL~

Recently, I am thinking about how to be a good film director.

And I have had some natural thoughts in my head.

e.g. How good a film director tells stories?

If he's a good story teller, he is a good film director.

I believe Alfred Hitchcock could tell goosebumps thrillers very well.

I believe Martin Scorsese could tell Macho epic very well.

I believe Wong Kar-Wai could tell stories about society and time space very well.

I believe Ang Lee could tell good stories, too.

Need not mention Steven Spielberg, Roman Polanski, Bernardo Bertolucci, Zhang Yimou, Woody Allen, John Woo, Hou Hsiao Hsien, Yasmin Ahmad and so on.

Thus........

I have to start practice.

for story telling.

Haha!

Echo Garden

Hellooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo............

Uhmm... Uhmmmmmm... Uhmmmmmmmmm.... Uhmmmmmmm...

Well... Well... Well........ 

Haha~ Haha~~ Haha~~~

It's been so long for this blog to keep its mouth shut.

Last post was April.

This post is July.

3 months man!

I didn't even feel like wanna update anything.

But then for now I do. 

Let me start with a few beautiful phrases:

How fast the time flies,

like no one could realize,

as I stare up high to the sky,

I wish all that was a lie.

Well I am officially a third year student now, same as Nd and LiYing.

Pity SeayEe & Yuren.. they still have 1 more year to go after we grad.

But, the most important thing that comes to my mind first is..

FINAL YEAR PROJECT

I guess you already know the meaning of red color font + bold right...

Haihh.. I'm still thinking about the title for my Thesis.

I want to do something about the films of M. Scorsese.

1. cinematic staging in Scorsese's film

2. V.O. as a part of storytelling

3. Aesthetic values of the lighting in Scorsese's film

4. Scorsese's theater

5. Scorsese's authorship

6. ...........

7. ........................

A lot... the option appears in my head like no need to pay one.

Free, and they just come together at one time...

And then I feel like I want to do them all.

This is the most contradict situation I'm facing now.

Imagine the same situation when you're ordering a drink from Mamak's stall.

They serve you a list of hundred drinks, and you feel like what..

There are 2 possibilities:

1. You're bored with those drinks.

2. You're greedy you want 'em all.

Same to me.

I could be bored by myself.

I could be too greedy.

Or maybe a mixture of two.

Well I guess, there is a number 3:

I don't even know what I want.

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在 KL 实习着... 不是很喜欢 KL 的生活方式不过还是没办法。

早上搭巴士下 KWSP 走 10 分钟的路去公司；

傍晚走 15 分钟的路去 UM 对面的巴士站搭巴士回家，

是我每天必须做的事。

没什么啦，就影视公司咯。

帮忙拍广告和电影等等。

没补贴... 可是有 project 时一天 100。

话说...

11 号 - 15 号要开拍 "M." 电讯公司的广告了。

话说...

RM 500

话说...

可以买一把电吉他了。

可可可可可可~~

哇劳我真的越来越挥霍了...

才刚来第一个礼拜就用光妈咪给我的$...

买了一大堆正版 DVD

还刷卡买了很多书本

唉~

挥霍 : 勤劳

往往挥霍会被看得重一些

 话说...

我还想买个 DSLR Canon 60D + EF 18mm - 55mm + EF 50mm f1.8

好吧我不得不承认现在真的偏了~

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Errr....

Bigbang 的 Blue 我还没空去录咧。

等我得空咯~

哈哈！

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最近读着一本刚买的书
封面最上方的一行句子够吸睛的。


"What your teachers never told you about the world's greatest directors"


书名正是：
SECRET LIVES OF GREAT FILMMAKERS

很确实的老师根本不会教这些东西
没看过这本书就根本不会懂的知识
很有趣的资料
或许是我八卦了些
不过真的可以读读看


p.s. 都读溺老师教的东西了，就放纵些读点娱乐的吧！


bye

相逢

我们 ~ 都已经长大，

好多梦正在飞！

就像童年...看到的，

红色的蜻蜓~

中五毕业后 大家都各自忙各自的

工作的工作

读书的读书

有的去这里

有的去那里

曾经有过一段誓言

没记错的话很像是中五的时候

大家打好网络游戏后聚在对面的巴士站

突然说道十年后的那天将在就地相逢

那天很好记

恰巧是 Qh 的生日

也恰巧地 Ck 正奋力的夹着他的屁眼

汗流浃背地抵抗着在大肠里蠕动的粪

我想他或许在他假假走到一旁时

偷偷地放了一丝丝的蜜蜂炮

上了中六
好彩没有什么誓言
因为跟到的是 CZ
本来还有 Eric 的
如果我们同班的话搞不好会有什么誓言呢
可惜...
随着班级的分配
誓言也被拆开分别变成 誓 和 言了

OMG... 话说上了大学又有誓言
还记得那时在 BRC Cafe 吃饭聊天时
不知为何的突然说道 三十岁的那天要回去那里一起聊天吃饭喝茶
看看大家变成什么样子了
结婚生子的话更要带孩子同行
ummm...
30 岁
等着... 等着...




"When you got nothing, you got noting to lose."

"I am the King of the World!"

I like this 2 phrases from Titanic. Just watched 3D version.
And... can you imagine?
When we were young we watched it on the tape or pirated VCD.
I have never felt its originality before,
until I sat in the MBO cinema in The Spring shopping mall on last Saturday.
It's still so epic.
and forever is..
I like the way James Cameron makes film.
So well-scrutinized you won't have time to complain on the little goofy parts
You run together with the flow of his story line
and you will whole-heartedly feel every little gestures made by the artists.
But honestly I don't know why didn't I feel the Avatar.
Maybe at that time I was whole-heartedly feeling something else...
probably every little gestures made by the one who sat beside me.
But then I think I will get a chance to watch it again or own one DVD myself.
I have to watch it seriously, and closely.
And of course, alone!

So, when you have done your best, nothing more has to be improved.
I would rather be the good one instead of being the best.


Au revoir et a la prochain!


it's CNBlue's Love Girl
the next will be BigBang's Blue.

So blue..

LOL!

You probably will laugh at yourself in certain circumstances.

Well, everyone does so, but the circumstance can be totally different.

Mine is like...

OS: "Oh gosh it is 8:15 am and I am still sleeping? I have an interview at 8:40 am with my lecturer for the class English for Professional Purpose's project!" 

Damn it I jumped up from my bed and quickly took my towel and boxer, rushed into the bathroom and REALLY BATHED within 3 minutes. (for sure, brushed teeth too).

Well done. I had to wear formally and so necktie, belt, leather shoes were the musts! OS: "Oh damn I was required to print my cover letter and resume for lecturer! And I didn't print!"

I asked my friend to print for me but the printer was just so naughty to me at that very important moment. Many problem would occur whenever you're rushing for something else. This is a truth we cannot ignore, and definitely won't ignore.

All was done and voooommmmmmmm~ I reached the office at Center of Language Study. Her office, Dr. Shanti's, phewww... my friend was still inside. So I took a deep breath, really a deep one, and drank some water to wet my lips and throat. I sat down and review my papers. Oh my friend came out but a Malay girl went in after that. FUCK IT SHE JUMPED QUEUE! Well, anyway, ummmmm, whatever,..... lady first. My friend adjusted my necktie and she went to class first. But I didn't feel so comfortable with my necktie because the thin part at the back was longer than the front part and THAT'S SO FUNNY so I redo it and made it longer. Just after a while, around 15 minutes, she came out. And that was my turn. 

Ummm... everything was okay. Good comments from Dr. Shanti. I was so freaking happy came out from her office. OS: YES!! WOOOHOOO~ IM SO GOOD! MUST HAVE GOTTEN HIGH MARKS" and at the mean time, I opened a door heading to the staircase. Well, ya... the door, there was the glass at my point of view. Well, ya... something happened and my mood was totally spoiled by that glass. Well, shouldn't say it was not the glass fault at all, it was my fault. 

Well, my necktie rounded outside my collar. 

It all happened because I was lack of sleep. Why? It all happened because I went for shooting, acted as a bad guy(gay).

Anyway, I am looking forward for the final product of my senior final year project.

So soon, they are going to graduate already.

As for my batch, we have one more year.

Hell fast.

Honestly, I like every of them.

Au revoir et a la prochain!

Industrial Training

Well, I chose to go Singapore.

But then fate doesn't bring me there to meet Mr. Neo.

Mr. Leonard, the Producer of that production has interviewed me.

But then my timing is not nice at all. My intern starts from 25 June to 19 August,

their film project production stage ends on 4 July. I can only learn 10 days.

And he asked me whether do I want to continue my intern there as an admin assistant.

I didn't refuse. But we both know our answers. We kept space for it.

We might have chance to work together, one day?

Who knows.

I called some, none replied my email, at least for now.

Some want intern students but they request us to interview at the company.

That's a no no.

So I decided to follow Keewu and Supeng.

I hope they still have slot for me.

If not... 

haih~~

I am tired of keep moving.

Life is too short for non-stop working.

Give yourself some times to sleep as kuat as possible.

That's all for this post.

Bye!

On Da Spot

Let me do this writing on the spot.

I am now at my faculty's student lounge.

Anyway, just finished English for Professional Purpose class, and I'm waiting for someone to accompany me for lunch. Ya, my fucking best buddy in UNIMAS, Mr. Chris Chan. Although my cinema buddies have just asked me for lunch, but then I dont wanna go out. You might think that I'm lazy. So, why am I breathing? You wouldn't even want to breathe if you are seriously lazy, to raise your breast, to inhale oxygen, these actions are killing you instead of making you alive. Haha!

Oh gosh. "I makan already", message from him. So, what should I do now? As usual, I would use whatever foul languages to force him to accompany me, though he has already taken his lunch. Fuck is probably the word I most use. With him, o0o is the word after Fuck, and we used to call each other "o0o" (in mandarin). Nowadays, people type o0o to represent middle-finger. That day, Pearly told us, o-ling-o is an animal. You don't believe? Go and ask google christ, it knows too much. Haha!

Well, he ignored my forceful message. Nevermind laa~

I always sit in front of my laptop spending too much time if I want to write a blog post.

I am a slow thinker. My country's education system just ruined my creativity and innovation.

After all the memorization and exams, I would never recall what I've learned.

Whatever laa.... 生日过了。

二十二岁了。

老了？还好啦~~

收到几份礼物，几封信息。

在这里要谢谢送礼物给我的其武舒萍秀珍佩莹邱诗KarenBihYiminChrisSammyWeilingKiwiAndySeayEeLiYingVivian

再谢谢发信息给我的CKGYLeewenjin还有我的小妹

更感谢打给我的 Brother Jeffrey富文飞CZ

wow... 我还写得出~

自从 FB 旋风卷入全世界的电脑后，

我收到 85 个 “生日快乐” Status。

哈哈~其实我爸妈都没祝我生日快乐！

我哥！

我的一些好朋友！

唉~~ 算了。这证明大家都老了记忆力衰退了。

话说连我也不常祝我爸妈生日快乐~

大家一起记忆力衰退吧。

Hmm... seems like nothing more to write and my stomach is screaming now.

Well, not that I want to laosai but it is some kind of hungry~

What else to say?

Errr.... I wanna take part in a film festival!

35^th Rencontres Henri Langlois in France.

It's for film STUDENTS in the world.


People from Russia, where Sergei Eisenstein the master of montage,
is the canonical filmmaker.


People from France, where Lumiere Brothers 
invented Cinematographe and created film art.


People from Germany, where Fritz Lang
is the canonical filmmaker.


People from UK, where Alfred Hitchcock the master of suspense,
is the canonical filmmaker.


People from South Korea, where the KPop stream is so hot now,
and the Music Videos are so amazingly eye-catchy.


People from Poland, Chile and many more.

I have seen some of the works from Prize Lists.

The participants have already reached high standard.

Compare to our Uni?

It's a NO WAY!

Hahahaha~

So, there's a way if I initially make it, right?

And... how to make it?

Well I don't know.

Let's see.

No,  for true love you wouldn't need to plan anything else.
It comes automatically. Those planned, fake, but succeed.

So far yet so close

SO FAR... I am not a professional person in my field YET,

SO CLOSE case.

I will try to find my way out.

Produce.

Screenplay.

Act.

Direct.

Art Direct.

Production Design.

Make-Up.

Costumes.

Cinematographer.

Lighting Director.

Sound Director.

Editor.

VFX Supervisor.

SFX Supervisor.

Or...

Cloth seller?

Waiter?

Clerk?

and what not...

You probably have to work hard and don't think too much.

Destiny will bring you to somewhere else.

So far, yet so close.

Like my mom in Jb is so far away from me in Sarawak,

yet I feel she is just beside me whenever I saw her messages.

Because her messages never failed to make me laugh.

"Just bank in RM300"

"Just bank in RM200"

"Is it enough?"

"Ok"

Honestly, these make me seems like so realistic.

And honestly, again, sometime I am.

But not with my mom.

my dad.

my bro.

my sis.

my relatives.

and my true friends.

You know who are you.

Now, think. 

I am so good at cam-whoring.

Wannabe master of this technique soon.

At least firstly, you have to know where's the lens.

Oppsss...

so girly.

bye

Au revoir et A la prochain!

p.s I wanna take french 2 but korea language is coming soon!

WTF should I choose!?

Bonjour!

Well, It has been so long.

I leave the February link empty, which means I have not been here for at least one month already.

It's new semester. Last third. I have two and a half semesters left to be a BA degree graduate.

I start to think that "being a student is so nice" as soon as I'm going to graduate.

I won't have time to blame anything else inside/outside Uni...

the late-comer, UNIMAS Sport Center.

the late-comer, Summer Shopping Complex.

the late-comer, Summer Lagoon.

These are the things I suffer for now.

But you know, I just have to get used to it.

Hmmmm..... I recall: 

I once told a senior from fine art program about my time in Uni begins to pass so fast.

He told me it will even be faster.

I liked.

一下子都第四个学期了。读完这学期就剩最后一年了。好快好快。

想想看多一年就要和 Nd & LiYing 一起毕业还真是有点舍不得啊..

不过较多是舍不得搁下雪忆 & 宇任...

因为他们还有一年！

但话说回来，又想快点出去打拼又舍不得毕业还真是矛盾咧！

嗯....

这次放假就要去实习了。我问了几间公司。

填在表格里的有新加坡的 mediacorp & j team production (梁志强); 

马来西亚广告公司 Naga DDB, 电视纪录片公司 Yellow (揶搂) 等等 。

说实话还真是难抉择。就很像...同一时间喜欢上四个人。

各有各的好，却不知道哪一个刚刚好。

恰巧 j team prod. 刚好有 project，所以我多数会去梁志强那儿。

目前我好像没提及往事喔...

似乎没什么值得回味的。

就...

假期去赌场搏杀了三次

两次在云顶

一次在圣陶沙

好伤储蓄卡嗫~~

然后都出去这里喝茶那里喝茶

猫 Cyber Cafe, McDonald, Mamak...

东买西买的...

日夜颠倒的...

这就是我的假期。

别问我开不开心，我只懂...

我还要。

和 Eric 一起 Jam 啊！哈哈哈！

最近很喜欢这首歌。

还想 Post 个 Guitar Cover 的。

片子有点问题。

算了。

bye.

2012

我
现在在录音室录音。
Audio in Film 的功课。
没想到，考试期间还有功课要交。

2012

新年了

新希望

但是这个学期

我颓废去了

没冲力

什么都没了

考试像粪

功课也糊涂糊涂的

脆了啦

OMG...

刚刚录的声音没 save 到

机就 hang 了........

完了完了

好吧

话说我答应过5000 page view后

要来个自弹唱

恩恩

《没有你怎么办》

Going back soon.

Wait for me.

Mom.

Dad.

Sis.

Brod.

Grandma.

Grandpa.

Uncles.

Aunts.

Cousins.

Bros.

Friends.

Alcoholic.

Games.

& Rests.

That day was my first time to Pavilion Pub for christmas countdown.

Kinda expensive but for me I was happy playing with friends there.

Last class for Asian Cinema

Errr... my room and my lovely pillow.

Ok laah,

Let's welcome the new year.

and Chinese New Year.

I just... need my ang pau asap.

ASAP.

ASAPPP!

Au revoir et a la prochain.